ciao mi amor

i'm leaving you for tumblr.

Stay strong through the struggle, that's what life is about.

Next time you point a finger... I'll point you to the mirror

It's just my humble opinion, but it's one that I believe in
You don't deserve a point of view, if the only thing you see is you

You're gunna wish you never had met me











We could have had it all

"Maybe you're only alloted a certain amount of tears per man; and I've used mine up. "

This tattoo speaks to me more than anyone can imagine. I've been through hell and back with anxiety that plagued me for 3 years. It was so entirely crippling. I lost days that i will never be able to retrieve. This tattoo is to remind myself everyday that I shall not worry any longer, for I am stronger than I ever thought was possible, both mentally and physically.

And to him:
I did this without you. I went through the most amount of physical pain I have ever endured. I did it. You were not by my side.
I do not need you, nor do I want you in my life ever again. You will never have the opportunity to hurt me again.

You will worry me no longer.

yes?

whawhawhat?

Yeah, I know. He's pretty disgusting right? :p juss kidding.

This Saturday

This will be me:






I couldn't be more excited.

:)

According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless
I can't do anything right
According to you I'm difficult, hard to please
Forever changing my mind

I'm a mess in a dress, can't show up on time
Even if it would save my life
According to you, according to you

But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted

Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you

New art project.

Inspiration:





Went to Ben Franklin's today. They're closing. Got a great deal on everything I bought. I am a very happy camper. Supplies: Black Canson art board, 7 Derwent Studio colored pencils, 1 Lyra polycolor (because there was no white Derwent), 1 white Prismacolor stick, 2 one inch blending stumps and a metal pencil sharpener.


I will post the progress of this idea, as no one looks at this thing besides me.

i like

This is probably the worst feeling.

Misery with a hint of nausea.

I spent time in the bath thinking about everything. I don't think I've ever had anyone ever make me feel so horrible. I've never been compared to an ex and had them tell me their ex had many more desirable traits than me. That absolutely killed me. It's not like i didn't give him chances to go back to her. Well, now that I know I don't compare to her I've completely given up. Failure is not something I like to admit.

no one

but myself to blame

I don't know all the reasons but this just doesn't feel right anymore

Something's different.

ok this is it finally found my perfect celeb crush

because i know you all care DEEPLY.

Patrick stump

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NYk1HZeA7SM

Do we mean everything we say?

I guess we have to, because we said they're promises.






Or did we?




because we all have to remember that promises are just words. Whether they are empty are not is up to you. Whether you decide to follow the trend of believing everything your told.

So many things I’d say if only I were able



But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

birthday

I WANT ONE. I LOVE DINOSAURS! :)

pretending.

another day of obsessively listening to The Script.

I guess it's my sort of comfort band in this time of shit, considering I'm avoiding "eating my feelings." (diet time)

Today is going to be hell. busy until 10 pm tonight. At least it'll free my mind up of things, only problem is i'm just going through the motions like some sort of cold-as-fuck zombie. I'm numb.

Hahahaha what a load of shit

Went through my messages and found this. I forgot how full of shit my ex was. So hilarious.

I'm one of those people you'd call crazy

As you can see, I'm pretty conflicted too.

Before the worst

I couldn't have found more perfect lyrics:

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking 'til the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to lose but so much to gain

It seems like no one has a blog spot anymore

Damn you tumblr!

Whaaa

I want one.

Welcome to my silly life:

Today I was thinking about how much I've changed since High School.
It's pretty phenomenal actually.

My looks. My attitude. My hobbies. My Job. My confidence.

Nothing has stayed the same except for the fact that I'm still me. Just a better more developed individual.
At the end of the day you have to live with who you are. And I can honestly say I love the person who I've become.



I feel like so many people have confidence problems at this age, So for those of you I have this to say:
"Pretty, pretty please don't you ever, ever feel like your less than fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever, ever feel like your nothing you're fuckin' perfect to me."

Another crush

Jesse Spencer. Plays Rob Chase on House <3

Brandon Boyd

<333333

twenty-eleven

I hate all that cliche bullshit of "This is my year!" and "I'm going to do start all over this year."

No you're not. && if you really want to start over, why does it take the beginning of a year to spark that? If you really wanted to make something of yourself, it would be done on sheer will power alone.

Do something great. Not because you feel obligated but because you WANT to.





In other news, I had an amazing night tonight with a very lovely boy. The first time I've felt 110% content in a while.

Baby please don't go. If I wake up tomorrow will you still be here?

I sure fuckin' hope so. Haha